June 29 :(

Yesterday, Thursday, I went swimming in the pool our site has, and I thought the kids were going to kill me! They like dunking people underwater. Worship last night was the best worship I've been to since 2009. It was really emotional and surrounded by prayer and love. Mr. Tim painted a picture that was just awesome. Watching him work was even better than the finished product, and I would pay all my money for the finished painting. Right now it's friday night/saturday morning... Whatever you consider 1:00. Site was really sad today saying goodbye to the kids. I painted faces today and one of them, when I was done, says, "I'm gonna pay you money!!!" And he laid down a penny for me. It was cute. Sean Marie took us to eat tonight after mega. Now we're in the dorm and I have to take a shower, clean my room, and pack hopefully before I have to be up tomorrow morning. Tomorrow is my last day. I've been really emotional since Tuesday night. I've cried every night since then. I just don't want to leave all my best friends. We were all forced to hang out pushing 20 hours a day at the beginning then it was just something we wanted to do and we got so close so fast and now we are all best friends but we're leaving tomorrow. I hope we can plan something for maybe next summer and see eachother again before we see eachother in heaven. This week was just a really humbling week and God showed me some of the stuff he can do inside me. He broke me so many times until I was shattered and I know he's going to rebuild me to be more like Him but it's really hard to just cope with all these emotions. We have to be out of here before 11 tomorrow. I will be sleeping all day when I get back because I don't see any sleep in my near future. I came into this second week with a really cold attitude like I wasn't going to get that upset when I was leaving but He started working on that Tuesday. He laughed at me and did what he wanted regardless of what I felt and I'm not gonna lie it kind of felt like a slap in the face. But I know it's what I needed. I needed these relationships with my fellow slayers and with my staffer, and I needed to be even more humbled. The slabies are doing a surprise for us now, I'm not really sure what, but I'm a little nervous. PRAY for me please.